for·ev·er
–adverb
1.
without ever ending; eternally: to last forever.
2.
continually; incessantly; always: He's forever complaining.
–noun
—Idiom
3.
an endless or seemingly endless period of time: It took themforever to make up their minds.
4.
How can a three syllable word carry so much meaning? How can so much emphasis be put on something that never lives up to its meaning? Life, Romantic Comedies, Friends and Family all have the potential to encourage the use of this word. Why? Why does life through us false words continually throughout our existence?
Nothing actually lasts forever. Nothing can last forever. You stand on the beach, you are walking and it seems like you can walk forever, but guess what, at some point you reach the ocean and you have to swim. Then it seems like swimming will last forever and once again you reach land and have to walk. I know that is a really corny way of looking at it, but if you think about it, it is the truth. Something can seem like it will last forever so easily and yet it is all just a mirage.
Don't get me wrong, I may seem cynical, but deep at heart I am just another girl yearning for her forever. I am striving for an existence and affair with a word that can't happen. It is impossible for it to happen. Maybe I have been watching too many movies lately and living my life vicariously through all the seasons of MTV's The Hills, but this conclusion about forever is where I have arrived.
There are so many connotations that attach themselves to this false word. Marriage. Life. Beauty. Friendship. All of these words can find their way to Forever in some sense. Obviously marriage is a vow of forever. For better or for worse. Life seems like it will last forever. Beauty definitely does not last for ever. Someone who is "beautiful" in their twenties won't always be that way. Plus, beauty "is only skin deep" and "in the eye of the beholder". Friendship also seems like it should last forever. Something always gets in the way though.
It is just like the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" every girl is planted with false ideas and meanings, yet I lean towards every human is filled with false ideas. We are promised everything from the second we are born, but that never happens. I am not trying to say life is awful and it is all a load of crap, but what I am trying to justify is the constant use of Forever. A word that carries a huge meaning, yet fulfills none of it.
Don't stop dreaming of forever because one day I hoped to be proven wrong. I hope to relish in my sweet forever, someday. But right now, as a cynical 22 year old college senior who graduates in four months and has no clue about anything, I choose to question forever.
I am choosing to ask it questions and taunt it with my beliefs and I hope to be mistaken.
"Life does not consist mainly, or even largely, of facts and happenings.
It consists mainly of the storm of thought that is forever flowing through one's head"
- Mark Twain
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