bit·ter·sweet
[adj. bit-er-sweet, bit-er-sweet; n. bit-er-sweet] adjective
ərˈswit1. both pleasant and painful or regretful: a bittersweet memory.
Bittersweet, it seems that I have this feeling a lot lately.
It seems that I am lost in the happiness that is my current life, while relishing in the sadness of what got me to this point. I never for a second doubt how far I have come, how much I have changed in just six short months, and how much further I have to grow.
My feelings of bittersweet extend beyond my past and current feelings, and also into my future.
Nearly three months ago I had some of the best friends a girl could ask for let me move in with them. There is no doubt in my mind that this was exactly what I needed, and there is no doubt in my mind that I will be forever greatful for them. There is also not a doubt in my mind that when we all move out in a week that I will miss them terribly. While I know we'll still see eachother, we will all being doing new things, and it leaves a bittersweet taste in the air.
For three months I had three girls that I could always turn to, that I could always hang out with, and that I could always count on. Now, I am still going to have a great friend to live with, but it will never be the same as the last three months.
I guess that's how life goes, we are constantly being put into new circumstances, and I guess that The Verve had it right when they sang, "You know I can't change...I'm a million different people from one day to the next, I can't change my mind." Our lives change fast. Faster than we can keep up sometime, and that we can be so many different verisions of ourselves within a week.
Just six months ago I was a different person than three months ago, and now I'm a different person that I was three months ago, and I will be someone completely different in another week.
Don't doubt me when I say that I am looking forward to the future, moving on, growing up and becoming a better verision of myself. However, no promise of a great future could overshadow the amazing time I have had the past three months. This is definitely a bittersweet circumstance, and it is one that I want to make sure is throughly acknowledged. It's a turning point in my life. It's a turning point I actually planned, and it's a turning point that will forever shape the person that I am and will be.
Thank You for the best three months a friend could ask for. Thank You for all the crazy late nights, for all the pool days, and for all the neighborhood bonding. I am forever greatful for what you have done for me, and I am forever greatful for your support.
A bittersweet moment like this is a rushing feeling and it shouldn't be taken lightly. Actually, a bittersweet feeling should never be taken lightly, for if you care enough to be happy and sad at the same time, then you must truly care.
Life is full of these moments, and we should pay more attention to them, for they are the moments that build our character, our individualism, and our loves.
"It's kind of bittersweet. The human spirit is not measured
by the size of the act, but the size of the heart."
- Yakov Smirnoff
“Life at best is bittersweet.”
- Jack Kirby
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