There are those days when I get up and all I want to do is get in my car and drive. I would love to drive until my iPod ran out of songs, but I am afraid that I would run out of roads to drive on before that. I am pretty sure that everyone has those days where they wake up and they want to do one of two things, nothing or drive. Personally I do lean towards nothing more often than not, but there just seems to be something so peaceful about driving and not knowing where you are going.
I guess you could say that I live in my head a lot of the time. I would argue that most people do. Most of us probably have daily conversations with ourselves, we dream about things and we analyze most everything (or at least I do). I cling to words. In my opinion any word spoken is a promise, a bind, a welded creation between the two exchanging them. I guess you could say that I am a person who takes to heart everything that is said. Don't get me wrong I can take a joke just like the next person can, but I am talking about promises. I am talking about a statement that yields a bond. I guess because I cling to these I am often disappointed and left wanting to either drive or do nothing. I am the type of person that expects you to keep the plans you make or to do what you said you were going to do.
On the other hand, because I am a person who weights an individual's words more than usual I am more reluctant to promise them myself. I am not one for making set plans with people weeks in advance because who knows it may be one of the days I just want to drive or do nothing. Guess I want to keep my options open and not disappoint anyone the way that I so often am.
Not sure if this all has a point or a meaning, but in my mind all words carry weight and that weight is a bond. Maybe I should learn to live a little more free and not be so dependent. Maybe I should wake up and just live the day. Maybe I should wake up and just drive until my iPod runs out of songs. The feeling of an open road yields no commitments or promises except a sunrise and a sunset, that is all we are really granted as certain. I suppose I will have to weight my life on the sunrises and sunsets, or as I previously stated, The Bookends to Life.
Neither of these are my pictures.
"The grand show is eternal. It is always sunrise somewhere;
the dew is never dried all at once; a shower is forever falling;
vapor is ever rising. Eternal sunrise, eternal dawn and gloaming, on sea
and continents and islands, each in its turn, as the round earth rolls."
- John Muir
