I'ma Roll If I Fall

You know those moments in life, when everything seems like it is all falling into place. It's like when you have found all the corner pieces and finished the outside of the puzzle. Well, recently my life has taken a turn to one of these moments. My lens focused in a little closer on my future, and I can almost see what it will be.

I didn't take this picture.

But! Never fear! Every time you get up that high, someone will knock you down. Most of the time they are not doing it on purpose (at least you hope), but for some reason this person twisted your lens and unfocused the hell out of your future.


Being a senior, a soon to be college graduate, and a 22 year old, my future is rather out of focus. 


There are those moments in your life, where you can say, "I will be doing ________ next year", or "I will be at _________ next year". Tonight, I did not have one of these moments. It is scary. I am scared, terrified, anxious, nervous, petrified.


I AM AFRAID.


So far, this year, I have been somewhat at ease. Only one major breakdown, but I fear there are more to come. And I think that as May inches closer and closer, those breakdowns will become more and more prominent.


So, you may ask, why do I feel this way.....or you don't, but I am going to tell you anyways....


Because life, my life, my next move, my 'A' plan, has not yet been created.


Tonight, at UT Ad Club, I heard an excellent speaker, David Avery, VP of The Tombras group. He talked about advertising. How to get into it. What to do. What to say. What to ask. He made me think. He made me wonder. He made me worry. David Avery did all these things, while being informative and entertaining. 


Now, I ask myself. What is my 'A' plan and how do I want to get there. Who do I need to talk to and meet. Where should I be going. What should I be asking and when should I do this.


Thank You David Avery.

To Be Continued..................

While we are waiting, listen to this great song by Barefoot Truth.

Lately the sun is castin' shadow over me
So come on and take me by the hand,
Lead me through the trouble waters of the sea
So maybe you got a halo over your head all the time
As for me, all I need is this rhythm for movin'
Cause you know, I keep kickin' it live, yea

Can I get a witness?
To defend my case
No I won't get caught up
In the corporate rat race
Well all I got's this committment
And behind it I'll stand tall
If flat shadows get me down
I'ma roll if I fall

So step back for a moment
To analyze all that you've achieved
And tell me was it what you wanted?
(Was it what you wanted?)
Did it make you happy?
(Did it make you happy?)
Or had you been decieved?

And if you have still yet to understand this theme
Well plain and simple
Don't live somebody else's dream
Don't you know the sea will surely come again
And the stars will fill the sky
Well it's a simple inspiration
But it always blows my mind, yea

Well can i get a witness?
To present my plea
And no I won't fall victim
To this animosity
All they can teach you
Is the writin' on the wall
I'm gonna cut my strings free
And I'ma roll if I fall

You know I'll roll if I fall..

Cause it's a simple inspiration
It always gets me high
It's a familiar disposition
I can see it in your eyes
It's the beauty of a new sunrise
You can never see one the same
And when we add the score at the end of this life,
Wanna say I won the game

It's the simple inspiration
It always gets me by
It's a familiar disposition
I swear I see it in your eyes
It's the beauty of a new sunrise
You can never see one the same
And when we add the score at the end of this life,
Wanna say I won the game

It's the simple inspiration
It always gets me high
It's a familiar disposition
I swear I see it in your eyes
It's the beauty of a new sunrise
You can never see one the same
And when we add the score at the end of this life,
I Wanna say I won the game